Escapism

I have been missing from the blogsphere the past few weeks. I felt that I simply had nothing inspired to say. And I think I have found the reason why.

When I had just started this blog, I made a rather naive post about addiction. Though I still stick with the original points made in that post (that all of us have our personal addictions and that no-one can judge another for theirs) I feel I have a new opinion to share.

I have began rephrasing the term "addiction" as "escapism". Because if we are honest with ourselves, we get addicted to things because we need a way to escape from our realities. A coping mechanism, a method of escapism or an addiction. They are one and the same thing. There might be diffirent degrees of each, but we all have ours.

Now for my confession. I have realised my happiness is terminally dependent on reading to exist. Simply put I NEED BOOKS TO BE HAPPY :) Rather a simple sentiment, but let me elaborate.

I recently got a new book to read. I could feel myself as happier and perkier in everyday life by simply submerging myself into a story at the end of each day. Escaping from real life and all it's irritations and emotions into another person's story (YES it was fantasy) helped me experience relief. It made me realise that I am badly dependent on these books to keep me happy.

Kinda sad if you think about it... But hey if you've never been in a relationship, then books might be your only option too :P The problem comes in, as with most addictions, that I cannot be happy without my stories. Sure, it's an addition that's a lot cheaper and easier to manage than most, but no-one should ground their happiness on an external object. "Happiness comes from within...." Wow I sound high... Or maybe I am. I can't decide after Artemis Fowl :P

Basically what I'm saying is I empathise! I get what an addiction feels like (I know it's not "real" to you, but to me it is). I also say find something in yourself to make you happy. Become addicted to yourself :P No-one said Narcissism was essentially bad :)

Peace